Starting over

I rejoined today. I was way over goal (like 8 lbs) and hadn’t weighed in since March (two vacations ago.) My lifetime goal was the get ww free number = the highest number for my height. Now my goal is the number I want to be. I’m hoping maintaining a number I like will be easier. And that I’ll be happy with me at that weight.

Drip. Drip. Drip.

One month later, still overweight for maintenance therefore off plan now.) Watching season 3 of Elementary, Sherlock eloquently put into words how I feel about maintenance, though his regards addiction:

I’ve been feeling a little bit down of late. It’s the process of maintaining my sobriety. It’s repetitive and it’s relentless and above all it’s tedious. When I left rehab I accepted your influence. I committed to my recovery and now two years in I find myself asking: Is this it? My sobriety is simply a grind. It’s just this leaky faucet which requires constant maintenance and in return offers only not to drip…I used to imagine that a relapse would be the climax to some grand drama. Now I think that if I were to use drugs again it would in fact be an anticlimax, the impious surrender to the incessant ‘drip, drip, drip’ of existence.”